I honestly just want what's best for everyone . . . and I guess in reality that's all I've ever wanted. But as the old saying goes "pleasing everyone pleases noone," and you end up just learning from your actions, becoming some sort of amalgamation of past experiences. While nothing can ever be perfect, there are times when I wish I could hold back from giving and be a little selfish sometimes, maybe have things go my way for a change. But people have their own interests in mind, and you end up having to take a back seat in their ride a majority of the time.
I haven't been myself lately. My job demands too much out of me, school is taking its toll, and people in general seem to take what's left. You would think you could expect better out of people, but life surprises you every time. Carelessness runs rampant in these parts, and if you're not careful, you may just get the brunt end of an unfortunate, or worse, malicious, circumstance. Betrayal of trust, a heart's mourning, and the ailing cries of a mind too far strained by those willing to put in the effort; sometimes you have to run away to a safe place, somewhere you can seek solace when everything else just brings you chaos.
No matter the issue though, somehow I end up getting by. I came across a collection of quotes while researching for a project, and it reminded me where I needed to be . . . and how to put forth the effort to get there. These words of wisdom brightened my day when everything else seemed to bring darkness. Everyone should have something that brings comfort and happiness to them during trying times, and for me, quotes provide me with depth, answers and the time for reflection. In some ways though, they are the only words I can believe in nowadays...
"I know we're all pretty small in the big scheme of things, and I suppose the most you can hope for is to make some kind of difference, but what kind of difference have I made? What in the world is better because of me?"
-- Warren Schmidt, About Schmidt
"Nineteen is old enough to know that if you have got somethin that means the world to you it's all that more likely it'll get took away."
-- Cormac McCarthy, No Country for Old Men
"When you leave here, don't forget why you came."
-- Adlai Stevenson
"Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine."
-- Anthony J. D'Angelo
"To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, garden, or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded."
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson
"So, I learn from my mistakes. It's a very painful way to learn, but without pain, the old saying is, there's no gain. I found that to be true in my life. You miss a lot of opportunities by making mistakes, but that's part of it: knowing that you're not shut out forever, and that there's a goal you still can reach."
-- Johnny Cash
"It's a wonder that I haven't abandoned all of my ideals, they seem so absurd and impractical. Yet I cling to them because I still believe, in spite of everything, that people are really good at heart."
-- Anne Frank
"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be."
-- Douglas Adams
"Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself."
"Act always as if the future of the Universe depended on what you did, while laughing at yourself for thinking that whatever you do makes any difference."
-- Buddhist Saying
"You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself in any direction you choose.
You're on your own.
And you know what you know.
You are the guy who'll decide where to go."
-- Dr. Seuss
"Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. Do not believe anything because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything because it is written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and the benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it."
-- The Buddha
"Nostalgia is the realization that things were not as bad as they seemed at the time."
"I tell you, the more I think, the more I feel that there is nothing more truly artistic than to love people."
-- Vincent van Gogh
"Never take a 'no' from somebody who isn't in a position to give you a 'yes' in the first place."
"God doesn't give you the people you want. Instead, He gives you the people you need. To teach you, to hurt you, to love you and to make you exactly the way you're meant to be."
"Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you differently is selling you something."
-- Princess Bride
"It breaks your heart. It is designed to break your heart. The game begins in the spring, when everything else begins again, and it blossoms in the summer, filling the afternoons and evenings, and then as soon as the chill rains come, it stops and leaves you to face the fall alone."
-- A. Bartlett Giamatti
"You can safely assume that you've created God in your own image when it turns out that God hates all the same people you do."
-- Anne Lamott
"Wherever you go, go with all your heart."
"I wasn't born with a silver spoon, but the streets were paved with golden opportunities...I wasn't endowed with a trust fund, but had a healthy trust that God would create opportunities."
-- Mike Huckabee
"To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting."
-- e.e. cummings, 1955
"It's not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change."
-- Charles Darwin
"I've done so much with so little for such a long time, I can practically do the impossible with just about nothing."
"You can't live a perfect day without doing something for someone who will never be able to repay you."
-- John Wooden